Saturday, November 06, 2004
one week's almost over n my room's not finished ( to mom's standard .. grrr) .. i still haven plan da HK trip (sianz lar .. ) .... juz finished colourin mom's hair .. hope it turns out well ... book her liao .. next wk she's gonna take a day's leave ..we gonna cut hair n my x'mas gift this yr is gonna be mama mia tix .. coz mom n dad wanna watch but it's too ex .. but i'm gonna buy it juz for us .. swt huh .. lolx ...
finally told ai ling today who my bf is .. she was lyk y don wanna let others noe bout it ? .. i donno if he wants da others to noe .. but wat ai ling say is true lar .. sometimes if da guy doesnt want others to noe .. may b coz he still wanna fool arnd .. but i think it'll be weird if others noe lor .. c how ba ..
aft hearin wat mom says bout this.. .i'm feelin even more insecure bout our relationship as ever .. i mean .. i noe nth will come out of this .. so y deny him a chance of gettin a ger tt he can spend his life wif .. haiz .. i tot a relationship shld be happy .. not one tt's insecure .. but it's oso my fault ba .. coz i cant seem to well .. put my all .. i'm scared .. i don wan da same to happen again .. haiz..
yest when feedin my babies .. sadness juz seemed to ovewhelm me .. i don wan to giv cookie or creamy away .. unless it's to ppl i noe .. at least i noe how they are progressin .. but to strangers? .. i really donno .. n they juz looked lyk babies .. when they were juz born .. i really don wan to lose them .. but i guess seperation is part n parcel of life .. *sigh* ..
think this is gettin long .. so .. tata all ..
bored;10:05 PM